Why Why Why

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Dear Heart,

This letter is for my future self.

Isolation is calling.

I’m done seeking and searching for aches and pains. I want to send back my love. By opening my heart to the void, I realize that all these years, I have been living in fear, guilt, shame, and overthinking what others might say. I’ve been too concerned with other people’s opinions, unable to live my own life. My decisions have been influenced by others, and I’ve played the fool, clinging to victimhood.

What is self-love, really? Loving others comes so easily—giving your all to someone else—but when it comes to loving myself, there’s only emptiness, bruises, and painful experiences. I hide my pain behind laughter and project a strong facade to the world. But what’s really inside, my dear? Mindlessness, carelessness, clumsiness, insensitivity, inconsideration—you name it. These are the judgments I’ve received from others, based on my unconscious behavior.

Look, I’m just a girl—a kid who grew up in an environment full of noise, trauma, destruction, and sabotage. With strict religious influences and verbally abusive relatives, I’ve had my fill of complaints. I’m tired. I seek purification and cleansing toward integration.

What’s my problem? Taking things personally. The moment I believe a judgment is true, everything falls apart. Triggers erupt. And I don’t want that. I want a lighthearted life—a simpler life, nothing too extravagant. I know I’m cool. Connection, not attachment. After all I’ve been through, I still know I’m cool.

The Path of Loving Myself

I’m on the path of allowing and accepting myself. Am I okay now?

Non-judgment, non-attachment, and not taking things personally—because I know, with certainty and clarity, what I want in life. I know what I desire, and I honor my feelings.

The more I love myself, the faster and more powerfully my desires manifest because I feel worthy of who I am. Worthiness is the Universe’s golden ticket to manifestation.

It starts within. I say this now, wholeheartedly, with allowance and intention. My deepest desire is to experience the happiness of the true self.

Clear Intentions Lead to Liberation

Clear intentions lead to emotional intelligence and liberation. This mindfulness journey is now open wide. I have the power to feel others' emotions. My gift of empathy runs deep, making me sensitive and conscious of my actions. I will use this gift as a tool to serve others.

The real desire—to know who I am—is already fulfilled. So, stop playing the fool. It is done. Thy will be done. I am here, now, in this life.

The Call to Live My Dream Character

See you soon! I’m rooting for you.

I now see myself the way the Divine sees me. I love myself so deeply that I want to radiate that love to everyone, unconditionally.

No hidden agendas. No hiding. No pretending. Just pure intentions that serve the highest good. Because all is one. Giving and receiving are one.

No doubts. All is well.

See you there!

Queen!