Mastering inward Dissonance: a noisy mind

In my existence in this human skin, I have always believed that our personality is melded by the upbringing we experience. This theory aligns with John Locke's concept of tabula rasa—the belief that humans are born without knowledge and must seek it through empirical observation. Who you are now is the result of your upbringing, according to the theories in behavioural psychology and scientific research. Do you agree, or am I just diving too deep into my thoughts? At this moment, it really makes sense to me how powerful our will of choice is from the moment we are born.

Traumatic experiences have taught me that when I feel terrified or afraid of something that is troubling me, pain and discomfort are not necessarily bad. In fact, they are powerful signals that we are on the right path, facing a challenge that pushes us forward and helps us break through. I don't hide from challenges in life; I always move forward and take risks. Speaking up is something I practice. I might not be 100% confident when speaking to defend myself, but actions are powerful, even if they are sometimes misunderstood. I may come across as rude or careless, but one thing I know for sure is that I've faced many uncomfortable situations in my life.

The process of trusting myself has made me more confident. I've stepped out of my comfort zone. Look at me now—I'm halfway through college. I know I deserve more deep down, but I’ve kept pushing it away and kept on smiling, as if it's too good to be true. Deep down, I feel bad for not speaking up about my truth. I have tolerated disrespect, sending the signal that I am willing to accept poor treatment. I’ve allowed others to treat me poorly, reinforcing their behavior by telling them that I’m not worth respect and that my time doesn’t matter. But this stops now. I am not a doormat. I am more than that, and I deserve to feel safe and respected. Respect is earned, not something you just seek.

This is a pattern I’ve noticed in my life: focusing on not rocking the boat, allowing others to walk all over my worth. This creates a loop of disrespect, making me feel insignificant and invisible. But this is not my reality. I won't allow others to dictate my life anymore. I am creating boundaries—not to hurt myself, but to teach others how to respect me and demand respect. This is about having a strong relationship with myself moving forward.

You are the one who determines how others treat you. You show your value through your words and actions and refuse to tolerate mistreatment. This is a choice you make. You create your own dignity, and this elevates you. Standing up for yourself is tough, but it's the only choice for the life you deserve.

By doing this, you'll attract people who value you. The only truth is that you are the one who should control your path. You are the one making decisions that shape your future. Don’t hand your power away—take it back.

Your intention should be to live a life aligned with your true self. Speak up and fear nothing. The power comes from stopping the habit of asking for permission to live your life the way you want. We are conditioned to prioritize the needs and wants of others over our own, but that’s the truth. We often put everyone else before ourselves.

What do you truly desire deep down? What do you really want or want to become? Start asking yourself these questions to empower yourself and begin living your life. When you realize how much more freedom and fulfilment come from taking control of your life, you will understand the transformation. You’ll make decisions without fear of judgment or the constant need for approval. When you stop letting others dictate your worth, your path, and your purpose, you will become unstoppable. You will live a life aligned with your true self, and everything you've ever dreamed of will be within your reach.

But first, you need to step into your power. Make the decision to take control of your life and stop letting others tell you what to do. The power is in your hands. The power to change your life lies entirely within you. The road to true fulfilment and success is not paved by others' opinions, but by your own choices, actions, and mindset. The time to reclaim your power is now because I want to live the life I want and deserve.

This is something I’ve come to realize through my awakenings. I can hear the voices inside of me, and accessing consciousness has opened pathways in my brain, connecting me to my higher self with the aggression I’m feeling right now. It’s so dense. The opinions from family, friends, acquaintances, strangers, ex-lovers, and most notably from my partner—now I have freed myself from these voices that have been controlling my life. It’s never too late. Once you tap into this, you can live happily alone. Haha! We’ll see where this new life lesson leads me. I’m excited to enter this new chapter of my life.

In just a few days, it will be 2025. What awaits me in my realm of infinite possibilities? Whatever the outcome, it will be my choice. I choose it because I want to. Let me consider it and allow myself to choose without the influence of other people's points of view. I’m good!