Quark

A 61-year-old man once said, "Failure is not an option." — Tito Andy.

Exploring his mind, I found that he is open-minded and a visual learner. He enjoys geography and history. He is both a navigator and a traveler. He once explained, “The Sun, the Moon, the planets, and the stars all rise in the east and set in the west—and that’s because the Earth spins toward the east.”
He teaches hands-on, using illustrations and real-life examples. He has the patience to teach. Yes, I see potential in him—but of course, we can't infringe on anyone's free will. Each person chooses their own path in this life, just like everyone else.
Here’s another one of his quotes: “A vision without execution is hallucination.”

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Today’s Insight

People often take things personally and overlook small gestures, regardless of their past stories. Gratitude is essential—it’s how we acknowledge and appreciate what we have and what others do for us.
Acts of service are, at their core, about giving without expecting in return.

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May 7, 2025

I woke up feeling calm and stable. I'm on a journey of self-discovery, shaped by the people I meet and those I pass by.

I’m beginning to see that the idea of being in love, or infatuated with symbols and representations, is often just fantasy. Talking to an older man about his life stories helped me realize that life must be lived according to the path you choose. That’s what really matters: the path you are intentionally choosing.

When your mind is clear about your path, you're less likely to be tempted by distractions. Reflecting on the years since I ended my longest relationship, I’ve come to understand how powerful the manipulation of daydreams can be—especially for a mind that hasn’t yet decided its direction.

This realization made me believe that guiding younger people to find their path is crucial. They need clarity, not confusion. They should know what they truly want—not just chase temporary desires for pleasure or avoid pain, but grow through mistakes and learn from them.

The more we fail, the more we learn—and with that learning comes better decisions. I want to live with a heart of gold. I want to give. I want to live. Service—that’s the beginning of waking up to life.

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Calmness and Deep Understanding

The limerence fades, and clarity follows.
Stay grounded.

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May 10, 2025

Reflections on Experience

Listening to other people’s opinions and knowledge helps, but today I realized I must continue discovering things on my own—not relying solely on others’ stories.

Right now, these are my thoughts:
My ideals do exist, but I haven’t met them yet. Everything I’ve wanted to experience in a romantic relationship hasn’t yet happened. So I’m tired—I surrender, and I accept that this life is meant to be lived, not dreamt away in fantasy.

I’ve reached a point where I accept reality as it is—not some fantasy world of dreams and illusions, not chasing Mickey Mouse.
Still, part of me remains open to that dreamlike world.
Reality is survival—isn’t it?

But I can't fully surrender—not yet. I’m still open. At this point, I’m not giving up. I’m simply continuing to search, to understand, to find out what it truly is.