how?

Do you believe that in this lifetime, men can only love one woman, even though they may like several women? But the connection is different when they make love to one woman. Do you think that’s even possible, or am I just in denial?

From my experience of giving too much of myself, I’ve come to realize that I’m just here to observe life. Love is like a war... you avoid it because you want to protect your peace. Crying in tears at night... this is a woman’s work. Am I abandoning it? Running away from it? A woman’s work is to nurture and extend her hands to humanity, to help and serve others. A woman...

And the “falling in love era” has finally ended. Ugh! That’s today’s diary entry. You don’t suppress your feelings. The art of seduction never stops, but what happens when the thrill ends? Oh, I know, it’s misery dealing with emotions and feelings. If it works for others, then that’s totally fine.

So, I’ve put myself in the role of "just the observer," and nothing is special, but deep down inside, I am different. I’m more capable than I ever imagined. There are more achievements in life waiting for me to help others. Let’s go... That’s what will make me happy, and I will work for it.

The girl next door and her "perfect" image—In your mind, a program downloads: "It should be." Well, that’s life: a lesson and embodiment of new learnings with conviction. Humans are subliminally competitive. Is it in the DNA? They feel anxious when there’s competition. They might say nothing, but you can sense it.

I spent some time with a past lover, thinking he might change his mindset, but things got worse. This brought me to the conclusion that I’ll stop analyzing people for who they are and stop controlling outcomes. I’ve been hard on myself these past few months, but I don’t regret feeling those necessary emotions. I used to blame myself for many things, but now I’m fed up with feeling low—it doesn’t help me move forward in life. I realized that overthinking and anxiety don’t help me improve. They only control and sabotage my experience. I’ve reached the point in my lonely nights where I’ve decided this feeling ends here. If it arises again, so be it. What’s most important is to stay positive and always ask my heart what to feel.

Love is the law of one. We become sensitive to life through our experiences, which make us resilient to hardship and help us overcome negative emotions that arise from time to time. Being aware of these emotions allows us to handle them wisely. It’s a skill we develop through practice, making us stronger mentally. People are people, and being sensitive to their intentions will guide us in making decisions from the heart and connecting to the holy spirit’s purpose through us to express itself.

How? Live in the moment. Live your life in chastity and modesty. Being in a committed relationship means you open the doors to considering things and compromising your inner peace. Now, I’ve reached the point of truly freeing myself from bondage, living life without seeking validation from others. I’ve learned to accept life as it is and just be. In all forms, I’m going to enjoy what I have now and stop dwelling on the past. I thank the people I’ve met along the way who reflected who I am—from past lovers to past affairs that left good memories. I choose this path, and I stand with it firmly. I hold onto it with conviction. I stay cleansing myself and remain bold in the face of what’s in front of me. I see what he’s trying to do now; I was a little slow to catch on, but I did. Now it’s time to replenish my life, to love madly, truly, and deeply, and be part of the collective with my newly built, authentic personality. I’ve said this to myself many times, procrastinating, but now it’s time to truly embody it. I see clearly now. I’m giving myself purity and value, building respect for myself and others. It’s time to let go and live completely free, listening to my spirit, in tune and in harmony. Be you. Be here now.

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After a couple of weeks, new waves of thoughts arise:

I am recognizing the programs and conditions in my mind. Authenticity is power. Expressing your truth is, at this point in my life, allowing the waves of emotion to rise. What you feel is part of the experience and journey in life—to face your fears, confront the things you deny about yourself, deal with your resistance to circumstances, and speak your truth from the heart. This practice is helping me get to know myself better and dive deeper into my existence. Generosity is when you think of somebody else and want to give them anything, and that’s what it’s all about. You generate and extend that love to others from the heart.

“What is your heart saying?” Only the heart can give the answers we seek. It is the strongest vibration in the universe, and peace is our true nature. Who would give up their peace? Of course, we protect it. When difficult circumstances arise, I always ask myself, “What is my heart saying?” I think it’s an urgent call from God: what we ask for is what we will receive.

I’ve also learned that seeking validation outside of ourselves signals to others that we are needy. Therefore, we don’t seek validation from others when we know who we are. We don’t feel anxious about it and live authentically, allowing ourselves to feel and express who we are.

“So, chase it and it runs. Release it, and it comes.”

This is a fundamental lesson I’m recognizing on my journey.

BE HERE NOW.
Chill, relax, and be free.