A dance under the Sun

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Dialogue

As I journey through healing my perception, the process is not a bed of roses, nor is it a constant state of highs. In contrast, life cannot be viewed one-sidedly; it takes courage and boldness to embrace both perspectives and simply let them pass. Highs and lows are essential to understanding the self and sitting with your emotions. Beginning this journey requires immense courage and a willingness to face yourself. Yet, stories have no real endings—our ego is a collection of experiences, both good and bad. That’s just how life works. Everything, in its own way, serves a purpose for good.

The dynamics of relationships depend on the depth and willingness to be vulnerable within yourself, exploring and discovering who you are. The challenge lies in accepting who you truly are. Our judgments can be so strong that we avoid facing our authentic selves, but the truth always knocks on our doors. We play many roles, wear many faces, and mask situations. Stripping down these layers of illusion requires boldness and bravery.

Exploring your emotions—experiencing the highs and lows, the intensity—is a beautiful process. Choosing to be with someone is a decision, and handling a relationship is a skill. Understanding others begins with understanding yourself. How can you be a good communicator if you haven’t built a solid relationship with yourself? Whether relationships work or not depends on individual personalities, character, differences, and the level of intimacy involved. Focus on yourself first, and clarity will follow. My experiments with this are enough—I'm done. It takes time to get used to simply being yourself.

Healing is a learning process, a journey of discovering all parts of myself and accepting them as they are, from different perspectives and through various learning styles. The awareness I’ve gained comes from trials and errors, from feeling and reflecting until I learn the lesson. This is the work—the doing. Now, the challenge is maintaining awareness while reprogramming my belief system, shifting from fearful thoughts to loving ones. This journey inward is not easy. Only you can truly understand yourself, through self-knowledge and a determination to grow.

I’ve found that my passion lies in healing. My approach involves self-discovery, building autonomy, and practicing service to others. This path is far from simple, but I keep trying and learning until I see things as they are, in their singularity.

All encounters are holy. Every person, circumstance, situation, and event contributes to your wholeness. The people I’ve met this year have served as mirrors of my level of consciousness, reminding me of where I am and encouraging me to see them as they are. I appreciate them all. Some broke my heart, tested my patience, triggered attachments, and challenged my assumptions.

Through these experiences, I recognized my own controlling tendencies, impatience, stubbornness, insecurities, and fears. These people reflected my own inner work back to me. Observing myself, I’ve noticed that I can now shift my mindset quickly and respond to situations with awareness. Change has become a natural response for me.

Putting yourself out into the world socially is valuable—it’s a space to practice and apply what you’ve learned. Interactions help you grow. Don’t be afraid of saying the wrong thing or making mistakes. Let it pass. Allow yourself to continue, unburdened by self-criticism. Nothing you do is inherently wrong; thinking otherwise may come from a defensive place, where you’re trying to predict or control how others perceive you. That’s exhausting and unsustainable. Authenticity is your best suit, and it’s essential to be mindful of the other person’s perspective.

Sometimes, people we meet just need to express themselves or release their burdens. They want to feel heard and seen. In those moments, just be a friend. Create a safe space for others to be themselves. But even this is not easy—it requires you to confront your own shadows, accept them, and forgive yourself.

Forgiveness is a path I’ve embraced, though it’s not instant or simple. In my experience with family, for instance, there are deep-seated hurts. Healing these wounds takes time and active effort. Through this work, I’ve noticed how my triggers and reactions have become more manageable. I’m grateful for where I am now.

Triggers still arise, of course, but I can assess them and respond quickly. When I feel heavy, I know there’s something beneath the surface that needs to be addressed and expressed. As soon as I acknowledge it, I begin to elevate step by step—one experience at a time.

Now, I’ve become more aware of how intentions shape my reality. I’m learning to choose consciously in every moment. Sensitivity, empathy, compassion—these guide me as I aim to serve others.

... To be continued