Ignorance is a bliss

"Ignorance is bliss." a phrase from a Greek play write Sophocles.

Beingness is where power lies—the Isness of life. Letting go of control and allowing things to simply be. You are not bound to anyone.

Facing reality, I sat with my emotions. Uneasy, my body reacted to the stimulus, uncovering that this feeling of something missing or lacking within me drove me to seek answers in philosophy, psychology, epistemology, and spirituality. At this moment, as I realize this, I notice the pattern: I have sought answers from men who possess depth. I question what they know about existence. But why men? Because I believe what I lack is a father's care and love. I seek the masculine approach—light and wisdom often found in a man: logic, rationality, dominance, and rhythm.

The dance of life flows in rhythms—the beat of the heart. Synchronicity brought me to the people I've met, polarizing the evolution of my soul. I realize now that I have everything I need, and writing about it brings me peace. This understanding strips away the fog in my mind, which was once shrouded by past patterns and high levels of neuroticism. Openness and allowing have guided me to this point in my understanding of the world I exist in. Each experience integrates into my whole being.

Now, the glittering illusions I once held have worn out. Melancholia calls on sleepless nights, urging me to figure out my "whys." Seeking after seeking, chasing after chasing—conflicts upon conflicts. I once avoided and dismissed connection, isolating myself and disregarding the dull facts of situations, preferring instead to interpret their meanings and implications. My ideas have always been unusual, perceiving things others might not notice. This, I realize, is a dimension of my personality. Knowing this now allows me to flourish as an individual.

Everyone has depth and a unique range of knowledge. By listening, I can learn new skills and ways of understanding others—where they are coming from. We all face troubles and moments of depression. We stress out and feel bad about ourselves, but these are simply life experiences. Maturity is a process—a journey of consciousness and discovery. Generosity teaches humility, and I can say reality has humbled me.

In response to conflict, whatever I did in the past that caused guilt, shame, or embarrassment led me to this new way of thinking. My sense of autonomy has shifted, and I now strive to embody and practice this change. Some truths are best kept within, and boundaries are necessary to protect ourselves from ego-driven dynamics. This is the foundation of self—a readiness to face life’s truths.

Empowerment, love, knowing oneself, and understanding our human nature—these prepare us to ground ourselves and start truly living. Yes, I AM. Despite the hurts, troubles, disappointments, and mistakes, these catalysts have brought integration. Now, peace lies within.

I am grateful to the man who brought this reality to light. It might be so dark, but it teaches me to respect myself and stand up for my truth. To speak up and control my path and that is me. A change is calling for power to unleash. Another layer of awareness has been peeled away, and living my life, my decisions and there is no fear of failures, fear of standing out and not letting people opinions drive my life. Fear is a thief of our potential. let not fear and others not instil my confidence and choices that aligns my decisions. Is life technical, critical, rational, logical, or empirical? Perhaps it is all of these. One side needs the other to be complete. Life is complementary—a balance of two wholes. If so, then so be it. Let us begin truly living.

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"Being Lived"

"Boredom is peace."

- Oliver