Who U Think U Are

Hi there, fellow human!

I'm new to this blog, and I've just started posting my thoughts, feelings, ideas, concepts, theories, and daily sparks from my "human" mind.

(These are inspired by the books I read and my life experiences, which might relate to yours.)

I'm a Filipina, born in the last month of the year. Life has been a journey of ups and downs — exploring, learning, appreciating, and observing. We are passersby in everything that moves around us. The people we meet, the passing events in our lives, the material things, and the emotions we feel are all fleeting. Yet, in this passing flow, there lies a deeper understanding of life’s essence: connection. To truly understand freedom is to realize that it comes from within. Some experiences are beyond words and difficult to describe, but now is the time for me to put them into writing.

This is an idea I had years ago, and now it has borne fruit. I'm ready to express myself and share my journey with the world.

Dear reader, if you're reading this, you might be a million miles away on the other side of the world. Though we may not physically connect, words can travel afar, touch hearts, and bring light to darkness. Through sharing, inspiration, and appreciation, we can bridge our experiences.

We all know the world today faces pain and suffering caused by the constructs of society — and I, too, experience this. Playing the "human game" of life is not as easy as it seems. Yet we dive into the infinite quest for answers with a willing heart, seeking to know what there is.

All of us have different life stories and experiences, yet we relate to one another. As children, we grew up in different environments, countries, cultures, religions, and languages. Isn't it amazing to be human and have this privilege to interact and play? We've created social constructs to guide how we "play" this human game. Our existence becomes more meaningful, and we attach ourselves to purposes and ideas that give our lives meaning.

There is no absolute right or wrong when viewed from different perspectives. The sense of purpose we attach to our lives makes them worth living. External systems, like religion, give us a sense of righteousness. Language and culture shape who we are, and both positive and negative experiences serve our highest good. We learn from mistakes, forgive the past, and trust the future.

As children, all we did was play and have fun — no thinking, no judgment. Children express themselves freely: they get mad, cry, laugh, and throw tantrums without knowing how to label their emotions. They are innocent. According to Erikson's stages of psychosocial development, at around age 7, a child's mind becomes self-conscious, and the ego begins to form. We develop judgments, identities, trust, and mistrust. We are molded by our environment, and it’s fascinating how adaptable we are.

As we grow, we become curious, ask questions, and investigate. Life is like being inside a maze — we map out ways to escape. Or like a chess game — one wrong move, and it’s checkmate. The ego sometimes overrides our learned wisdom. Our human form is limited because we fear death and cling to survival and security. We fear the future and struggle with the past, forgetting to live in the now. The greatest privilege is to be alive.

I’ve had my share of good and bad experiences. For years, I blamed myself for what happened to my family, feeling guilt, shame, and abandonment. This led to depression and a search for happiness in external things, while I ignored my inner self. I relied on others — friends, partners, coworkers, family — to fill the void. I lived a lie, not being authentic. My intense emotions resulted in self-destructive behaviors, codependency, and poor mental health.

But now, I've brought these issues into my awareness. I’ve shifted my perception from fear to love. I help myself first. When difficult emotions arise, I sit with them, practicing breathwork, journaling, meditation, and self-inquiry. These tools have helped me become more honest with myself. Facing your emotions isn’t easy — it’s tempting to escape through drinking, partying, and other distractions. But I choose not to fall into old patterns. I am committed to practices that serve my highest good.

We fear death and resist change, but when we stop resisting, we can breathe out and let go. Be mindful of death. Everyone you see will be gone one day. When you accept change, everything becomes amazing. The void — or sunya — is a relief.

Don’t cling to the void, either. The thinker, feeler, and experiencer are all within you. We are all part of the flowing life process; there is no separate witness standing aside.

As Alan Watts said:
"You’re all involved with it."

I now enjoy the space I’ve created in my human life. My mind is that space — limitless, holding everything.

"Does space judge the existence or presence of anything? No.
Space just allows. Space holds. Space is limitless. In space — ALL IS."
— Dot

We are still bound by human constructs, yet we can harmonize with them. Beyond these constructs lies the formless and spacious realities of God.

"You can see and feel love in everything without the need to fill it up. You are just there."
— Zade

We are all just passing by in this human experience. Beyond duality, remember:

"Be passersby."

— Dear