Slipping Away

                                                            

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There is a word in Filipino, "say-say," which means telling history with depth and meaning—a story told by great storytellers. I've listened to many inspiring and tragic stories of people's lives and transformative experiences. The word "say-say" came to mind as a reminder of my own experiences of defeat and loss. Another major shift in my life has reached its peak, and the turning point is right here in front of me. My nervous system is sending signals. My heart aches deeply. Agony, guilt, shame—how can I transmute these feelings into strength, courage, might, and determination for change? I am learning from my unconscious behaviors, which are surfacing for healing and soul evolution. This is the catalyst.

The "say-say" here is that we rarely learn unless we purge ourselves unconsciously. Sometimes, even when we're aware of our actions, we make choices that lead to suffering. Is this some kind of self-sabotage? We place ourselves in situations knowing the consequences, yet we act foolishly. The "naive" keep moving forward and suffer for it. This happened to me. I've worn the pretentious mask of being a victim, and I’m tired of it. It’s exhausting!

One Bible verse that stays with me is Proverbs 22:3:

"A shrewd person sees danger and hides himself, but the naive keep right on going and suffer for it. The reward for humility and fearing the Creator is riches, honor, and life. Thorns and snares are in the path of the perverse, but the one who guards himself stays far from them."

So, what’s the wisdom here?

The naive dance in danger because they are careless. But is there something wrong with being carefree in this world of possibilities? Life is a constant balancing act, requiring awareness of who you encounter and what energies you allow. The world is full of diverse behaviors, and people can consume your energy if you’re not careful. Setting boundaries is essential. Being closed, selective, and mindful can help you navigate these dynamics.

By observing behaviors and understanding your own, you can gain tremendous wisdom. When you’ve developed high coping mechanisms and endured deep hurt, you’re prepared for life's battles. Consciousness has layers, and meditation is a tool to access the deepest parts of yourself. If you’re not ready, you might get stuck in depression. I used to hate that word, but I’ve learned to love myself. Growing up in a chaotic environment with emotionally unavailable caregivers made me hostile and resentful.

Meditation, self-help books, and awareness have helped me make progress. Even in my darkest days, I find passion and the will to keep going. I am building courage, integrity, and sharper awareness.

The key word here is “intentions.” It’s a powerful word that helps you understand your motives and needs.

Why are you here? What are your intentions?

Temptations are always beautiful, enticing, and convincing. They appeal to our senses, but beyond those senses, there is a guide that helps us choose wisely. Developing wisdom is a skill, and the soul is constantly learning its earthly lessons. Despite the challenges, use positive psychology. In the end, the people who drained your energy will disappear, leaving only the lessons and memories.

Everything is temporary. You still have your heartbeat, and your mindful awareness is the guiding light that leads you toward your soul's evolution. In this world of temptations, if you don’t know who you are, you’ll find yourself in ambivalent situations.

In this human experience of duality, time is relevant. We must cooperate with life. Yes, dealing with human behavior can be difficult, but the beauty lies in non-judgment. Let go of others’ dramas and patterns. Forgive, love, and move on. Apply the changes you’re determined to make. Embrace authenticity, self-worth, integrity, courage, intention, and shrewdness.

Be wise, my dear, in this world of psychopaths and energy vampires. Learn how to deal with difficult people. You’re sensitive to motives, so prioritize yourself and your boundaries. Create a new version of yourself—yes, you, Zade.

My journey into psychology has helped me cultivate authenticity, boldness, confidence, and trust in the process of becoming the greatest version of myself. If the end exists, the meanings, labels, and identities we cling to will dissolve, and we’ll realize we are not our bodies. These bodies exist for experiences; we shouldn’t attach ourselves to their meanings or the conditions we come from.

We always return to our center.

Shame? Guilt? Been there, done that. So what?

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! "Kabalan."

Let’s play again. Restart. Game on. Dance through life and enjoy the ride.