Nature Boy

"Ignorance is bliss."

The essence of being—the beingness—is where true power lies. It is the isness of life: letting go of control and allowing things to be as they are. You are not bound to anyone.

Facing Reality

Dialogue:

I haven’t been writing down my thoughts lately, even though writing helps me release anxiety and calm my restless mind. Over the past few weeks, I’ve noticed a lingering stimulus in me—a dreamy, almost addictive fantasy. It revolves around a particular person or, rather, an image I’ve created in my mind. This isn’t about the person themselves but the idea of them, the entity that magnetizes my attention. It’s not about them at all but my perception of them, built from stories and fragments I’ve analyzed.

This is the trick—my mind. My human mind constantly analyzes, seeking answers for everything. Since I was born and shaped by my environment, there’s been a kind of governance in my head—a voice trying to make sense of it all. Now, as I patch these fragments together, I assert order and meaning.

A man once told me, “Thinking ruins the flow,” and he grew tired of talking to me. That stayed with me.

As I try to become more aware of my life since breaking up with my husband, I’ve encountered people who’ve left meaningful impressions. One taught me to take life as it comes and be present in the moment. Another sought intimacy on a deeper level, but I couldn’t fully give or receive it. My mind was preoccupied with past negative thoughts, clouded by doubt. In truth, the experience of presence is pleasurable and simple, but the mind complicates everything in an effort to feel secure. Yet, isn’t that sense of security an illusion?

My autonomy—my mental and emotional independence—is still a work in progress. I am aware of this now and notice it on a deeper level. I’ve been learning so much lately, but through experience, I’ve learned even more. My learning style is largely kinesthetic and visual—I learn best through doing and seeing. Auditory learners, on the other hand, seem naturally adept at picking up messages and engaging with others socially.

Facing your own flaws and challenges is never easy. I’ve come to understand that not everyone can tolerate or understand my unique behaviors. Self-awareness is not a bed of roses. How deeply do you know yourself? And if someone claims to know you better than you know yourself, does it really matter? Of course not. Each of us is struggling, integrating, and evolving by choice.

Healing begins with self-awareness because, as the saying goes, “You cannot give what you don’t have.”

A Declaration

I must let go of what’s been weighing on me. Whatever happened over the past few weeks, I now declare:

IT IS WHAT IT IS. END OF STORY.

It does not define or affect who I am.

My loneliness has taught me that love is not something external—it’s a state of being. It is wholeness, not separation. Love casts out fear. And what should I fear when all is well?

In the realm of infinite possibilities, anything is possible. Life flows; just keep sensing it. My analytic mind has brought me to a profound introspection: in life, there’s nothing to defend. Authenticity means not fearing the future, not even a sense of responsibility for how it will unfold. Once you feel this, things naturally shift. Change happens with the power of choice and intentional action.

So now, when I feel loneliness, I smile. Deep down, I know I’m not alone, and nothing is missing from my life. Everything is perfect. This is the mindset I’m choosing moving forward. I have everything I need, and it sustains me.

Solitude is not a mask for loneliness. Solitude is inner strength—the ability to find peace in your own company. Choose yourself, always.